I am kind of sad today..... I mean I get the feeling too from everyday life..... But how it's permeated everything is just annoying..... It's about I guess the 1.5 generation of immigrants..... Sometimes I wish I didn't know that much about either culture cuz when I talk to full cultured ppl on both sides they find faults with my thoughts what I'm saying or think I don't know enough about things that are very common for them....
And this is a pretty important factor for me with trying to find a guy too. Because I honestly think the super Americanized ones or the super Chinese-ified (is this a word?) don't agree with my world views. And the reason today pushed me off the edge is because I check this one forum sometimes.... To learn Chinese and see how the youth talks. And I posted something about Chinese culture on there that I found fascinating and thought they would too to make a nice discussion. And that forum can be hostile sometimes (cuz netizens, right). But I really try to filter my words when I talk there.... But still they didn't find my Chinese satisfactory and my insight wasn't deep enough for them (very basic knowledge they say). Even tho my parents and the other Chinese ppl around me don't know either. Maybe it's wrong for me to be so interested in Asian culture or at least try to interact with ppl in china..... But is it so wrong to want to learn about your roots and face hostility from both sides?
2 comments:
I know what you mean. the 1.5 gap is a pretty tricky place to navigate, not to mention that 1.5's themselves fall in a wide range. Some tend to be more like the "motherland" and some more like the "adopted land". We're all trying to fit in somewhere , and that's a struggle everyone faces the older we get! However, I think as you said once we can all agree to disagree, and find our own niche. Hostility certainly isn't worth your time, however perhaps one way to deal is to realize that everyone has issues. Maybe those people just don't get it; or they just have something to prove, or they're just unhappy about how they're fitting into their own lives. It doesn't make you wrong. I think it's great that you're putting yourself out there to learn Chinese and interact with people. Some (or a lot) of days can be discouraging, but sometimes we stumble upon an idea, or make a friendly connection that makes it all worth it. <3 you Z
thanks for your comment....i was srsly crying while reading it.... I don't know.... I try not to label myself or other people.... but there's many people that are in a hurry to do the opposite.
But yeah I probably won't go on that website anymore since hostility is part of that environment.... and although we have common interests, it's just not worth my time and nobody wants to discuss anything with me.
I'll probably just stick to learning chinese from my lab then....lol. Cuz I AM interested in seeing what the younger generation in China is like..... because they are def very different from how my parents. It's just very surprising.... cuz I've tried my best to pick up the grammar and word usage again.... and the mistakes I make.... are probably not as bad as what my mom makes in English (lol) Well.... there is intolerance in ppl here with bad english too..... so i guess ppl are the same everywhere....
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